Giving up on DeviantART and Facebook for some time everyone. My depression is getting worse and worse, and I feel like the only way to get rid of that is to focus on my independent university work I can now do. And focus on ONLY that. I was very depressed this morning, and thanks to my friends at uni I managed to perk up a bit. But I'm going to get stuck into work to try and distract me. As right now DA, FB and other things are just making it worse. I'm on DA less anyway now since University started, I think you all knew it was coming. Plus, my arthritis is getting so bad, if you hadn't read my previous journal I got 14 out of 40 on the strength test, so VERY WEAK. I am actually struggling to do my bra's up now, dress myself, open doors, ANYTHING really. Opening bottles, using a knife and fork. I'm worsening. To the point where my friends have to open my locker for me, open doors, lift tables, chairs and things in FOR ME. my MUM has to do my hair (Brush and style it) and make-up because my hands aren't strong enough to do it. This is beyond embarrassing I can barely type now too. Let alone draw. I need to save all the strength I have for uni. If I can do anything that day. I mean…who has your mum dress you? Because your hands won't work at all because they are not strong enough? My mum has to practically see me naked sometimes because I can't put my bra and knickers on… Sorry I'm telling you all of this. I'm just REALLY emotional I'm starting to teach myself to paint with my feet because my hands won't work I'm really sorry everyone. I have to wear splints all the time, and this is two splints on each hand now. And I have to bring a cushion wherever I go too because my arthritis has spread to my feet, hips and spine badly Sorry…Sorry I have let you all down….